Mother's Day?

I'm pretty sure every child has embarrassed their mother. I was already in a bit of a grumpy mood this morning before we went to the La Leche Leaugue meeting. Evan was trying to pull up the floor and steal other kids toys and food. He is a very wild child. He likes to crawl on top of tables, pull things down, scream and cry when I am trying to deal with 2 or more patients and the phone is ringing, or decorate the office walls with my highlighters. I could get so much more work done if I put him in preschool, but instead I have Adam take him home and end up staying at work until 8pm finishing up. My problem is I can't trust anyone to watch him. I want to raise him not a teacher at a preschool or a grandma or aunt. So today I was feeling sorry for myself not being able to be a stay at home mom. I act like being a stay at home mom will just solve all my problems.
And then I started to think about my own mom. She did what she had to to be at home with us. We were so poor when we were little, but she was home. Once we were all in school she took jobs so that she could be at home after school. She drove buses, cooked school lunches, delivered newspapers, etc. I am so grateful that she was at home with us and glad I didn't have to be raised by one of my aunts or a day care center. I know she had to be embarrassed about some of the jobs she took and by her kids too.
When I was about 13 she worked as a lifeguard with a bunch of teenagers and college kids. She would drag us to work with her everyday since we couldn't be trusted to be at home alone. It was awesome for us girls because we got to basically live at the pool all summer. BUT we were so bad, one day it was raining so my sisters and I decided to turn the Triangle pool restroom into a slip-n-slide! My mom's boss caught us and said Ruth you need to go take care of your girls in there. We had to sweegie the whole bathroom before we could leave. I would have been so embarrassed if I were my mom. That is just one instance of us girls embarrassing her, believe me there are many more much worse stories. What is funny is the whole time I was growing up I thought SHE embarrassing ME, I can't believe how much it was the other way around. MOM, I'M SORRY.
Now when Evan embarrasses me I'll just think about the things I did to my mom and realize, Karma is a bitch!!
So I thought Mother's Day was just a day like Valentine's where the flower & cards companies just want us to consume, consume, consume. But it is just one day where I can try to tell and show my mom how sorry I am for once being a teenager and to let her know I appreciate all the time she spent with us.